tugging at your heart strings

sebastian and elliot really have made my heart tender. sometimes i start shedding happy tears because their sweet and innocent ways just get me everytime. the juggling act of caring for two little (messy) boys has also taught me to just let things go...like not caring if everything is picked up, or if we just end up eating on the floor and crumbs spill everywhere. i guess at the end of the day it's more important that i had quality time with the boys.

today was the first day of fall classes for Sebastian. I managed to get all of us dressed, sort of fed, and out the door in time for the 9 am class. Here are some things i learned from the experience:
1. I need a bigger diaper bag. One with lots of pockets, something that provides insulation for milk and snacks. One that is semi-easy to carry.
2. I want to do everything and be everything for elliot and sebastian, but sometimes it's not possible. but it still breaks my heart when one kid has to wait for a second...sometimes crying.
3. i really do not like separating from Sebastian when he starts to cry and cry out for mommy. but i am thankful for the awesome teachers who know him and redirect him so that when i come back he is totally happy.
4. one of these days i will have to let Sebastian walk from the parking lot to the inside with me...instead of using a stroller, cart, or being carried...which is what we've been doing up until this point. but i'm terrified that he will just start running around in the parking lot. i would really like a double stroller like the Bob Revolution Duallie, as would Curt. but they are just so darn expensive...and now I am wondering if the thing would fit through the doors at Sebastian's school.
5. I'll for sure have to pack an extra change of clothes for Sebastian. They have a water table at school. He's the kid that will end up being completely wet from wildly splashing the water...if he could crawl in the table he would. Luckily I had a spare onesie today...we avoided him going shirtless at school...that would have been embarrassing.

elliot is three weeks old today! time is flying. he is super sweet, and can be really alert in the morning and evening. he continues to not like water and hates it when you take a cold wipe to his butt. he has the perfect swimmer's build...think Michael Phelps with the long, large torso, and small short legs...but we don't have a lot of confidence that he's a water baby. today during the parent education hour he was alert and awake and totally smiling at me, i was a bit distracted :). finally, for being the little brother...i wouldn't say that he's really little. he is wearing six month old tops and 3 month old bottoms.

sebastian has really grown attached to curt. they have been doing a lot of running and biking together. curt discovered that sebastian has practically memorized some of his books that we've read over and over together. curt will start a sentence and then allow Seb to finish it. It's kind of a neat thing to see.